I have been conditioned for so long to look at myself through the eyes of my ego – to see myself as someone who constantly needs to change or improve my looks, my image, my life.
But it is when you learn to look at yourself from the perspective of your higher self – to see yourself how the ones who love you see you, to see yourself as a magnificent human with talents and passion and someone who deserves to take up space, someone who deserves to speak out about the things they believe to be true. Someone who has done the work and can take accountability for their past, and yet can hold themselves with compassion because they know that they only ever did the best they could with what they had. Everyone deserves to know themselves in this way, because on a soul level, we are all the same. We all just want love and acceptance, health and abundance. Beauty and magic. Our souls are from the same source.
I believe humans are inherently good on a soul level. I also think that everyone hold trauma in one form or another. I think that unhealed trauma is what makes humans do bad things. Some traumas run so deep that they don’t even know they have it or that it needs to be brought to the surface to be healed. Or that it’s just too big or scary to look at so they shove it down and unconsciously express it in unhealthy ways.
I think there are different levels to it – but ultimately this is why the world is so broken. Let’s zoom all of the way out for a second. Take a look at the people in charge, the people who have built the modern world as we know it. Do you think their parents passed down unhealed trauma? Hell yes. Do you think they spent time in their life prioritizing their healing? Hell no. Now, deep breath, because here’s a wildly opinionated yet truthfully correlated statement – of which you can take, or leave: The world is ran by unhealed, traumatized men (of mainly caucasian descent) who don’t know how to or care to do the work to figure out why they need to obtain power outside of themselves. By doing so, the elite of the world have created broken, unbalanced systems cleverly disguised as society’s default button that the rest of the world has no choice but to fall into them.
Now, to be fair, I am not one for overly generalized statements that tend to lose their gravity due to their dramatic nature. However, this is what I have observed to be true. Does that mean I believe all white men are born of evil intent? Absolutely not. I do believe, however, the majority of the people who run the central banks and therefore are in charge of a vast majority of the world’s money (and thus, power), have obtained those positions of power by making choices driven solely by their ego.
Now, zoom back in. Did reading that intense opinion trigger you? Why? The journey to becoming a more healed individual is being able to set your ego aside and dissect the opinions of others that trigger you in order to unearth the trauma that is often hidden beneath.
Granted, there’s always an opposing perspective that balances the latter. I also think that constantly trying to heal can be toxic in its own way. That is also a form of expressing unhealed trauma – through the belief that you’re not whole, complete, perfect- just as you are. By doing this, you’re telling yourself that you always need to be fixed, that happiness with who you are always lies just around the corner, never quite within reach. That things outside of ourselves can fix us. That we are constantly broken. But sometimes just knowing that you have the desire to heal yourself is enough to change the world, that maybe you have arrived, that maybe you are whole as you are, here, now.
The Ascension Garden 